You never know what changes a phone call will bring or how it will impact your life. A year and a half ago we were surprised by a call.
“Can you come and get the kids?”
Although we had been asked many times in the past if we could come and take the kids for a night or weekend, this call was different. We were informed our daughter had tried to end her life.
She was in the hospital when we arrived at her home. Her two scared and hungry children waited for deliverance. Our two-year-old grandson was lying on the couch, crying, arms reaching up to me. It was almost 8:00 in the evening and he and his seven-year-old sister hadn’t yet been fed. He gobbled up two servings of instant oatmeal as quickly as I could feed him. My granddaughter had eaten a granola bar she foraged from the cupboard and was looking forward to “going out to eat.”
We gathered their things like the house was on fire. I grabbed clothes, medicines, school backpack, a stuffed monkey and a doll. The children had been at our house almost as much as their own so we had enough stuff to get us through the next few days.
Within that time it was apparent the children needed to stay with us for a while. At least until their home life had significant changes. Our daughter needed tough-love parenting as we loving advocated for our grandchildren. I bought a crib, sippy cups, and lots of diapers and wipes.
We cried and prayed and I began to journal. These outlets have been my way of coping. I will end with a journal entry and a question: What do you do to help you cope with difficulties when parenting your child and/or grandkids?
I Want My Mommy
“Mommy, mommy. I want my mommy.”
Their cries pierce my heart.
Our tears mingle and bathe our faces.
Two little ones whose lives have been decimated by the paths chosen by their parents.
No excuses or explanations will comfort them.
I can only offer the sanctuary of my home,
Is Your heart crushed when I foolishly choose to ignore Your laws?
When I cast aside Your plan for my life?
When I seek my own way, not Your will?
As I raise these little ones, please help me remember to seek after You.
To follow You closely.
To draw my strength from You.
Supply me hourly with patience and energy.
Help me model Your love and grace.
The task is too important and too great to do on my own.